After two years of being prescribed Cymbalta, I hit a brick wall. You see, this medication did not help me feel better. Instead, it caused me to feel worse. So much worse that I could barely climb out of bed. So intensely disabled that I was horrified to watch my health deteriorate and my life spiral out of control.
I became fed up with fibromyalgia! Not only that, I was fed up with potent chemicals that wrecked havoc on my body, mind, and cognitive function. Fed up with the specialists who could not explain why these medications, invasive procedures, and testing did not reduce my pain levels. Most importantly, I was fed up with each doctor handing out one prescription after another, yet not being able to get to the root of the problem. Lastly, I was disappointed, disillusioned, and overwhelmed that not one single doctor had the commonsense to check each script to make certain that it was safe.
Following a close to death situation that was a hellish nightmare for me and my family in which I nearly lost my life in November 2010, I knew there had to be a better way to heal and take control over this stressful condition. This is when my new health journey began. When I gradually tapered every single toxic chemical, fired my doctor's, and set out to take my health into my own hands.
Quite frankly, I admit that at first it was an uphill battle, but along my healing path, I started reading as much as I could to gain more insight into holistic nutrition and wellness. Soaking up information like a sponge, I was ready to take that first step to increase my quality of life. I eliminated processed foods, genetically modified organisms (GMO) to the best of my ability, gluten, fast foods, fake foods, and ingredients that I believed were more harmful versus helpful.
As a woman of faith, I clung to the verse that declared, "I came that they may have and enjoy life, and have it in abundance [to the full, till it overflows]." John 10:10 (AMP)
On bended knees, I cried, begged for mercy, and asked the Lord to give me the courage, wisdom, and strength to keep seeking realistic answers to lead me to fully recover. There were some dark days filled with excruciating pain, suffering, and anxiety. Moments that had me questioning if God heard my prayers. Lonely nights when I tossed and turned from severe insomnia. Months when the struggle was real, raw, and my hope for getting better started to falter.
Of course, looking back I can see that God was with me all along. He never left me. He didn't abandon me. He was there by my side waiting for me to surrender this heavy burden to Him. Perhaps, this is when my faith was tested? When I reached the darkest fiery pit and could no longer lean or rely on my own self?
While this intense trial was extremely difficult to overcome, I believe that the lesson learned from it is that our pain is for God's gain. The truth is that God can use anything, including depression, anxiety, sickness, and suffering to build our character and mold us into the person He wants us to be. Through the hardships of disabling pain, wicked drug withdrawals, and an uphill battle for my life, I have become a much more compassionate person.
The Bible confirms that our suffering will not be in vain. It can and will be used for a higher purpose. "All praise to the God and Father of our Master, Jesus the Messiah! Father of all mercy! God of all healing counsel! He comes alongside us when we go through hard times, and before you know it, He brings us alongside someone else who is going through hard times so that we can be there for that person just as God was there for us. We have plenty of hard times that come from following the Messiah, but no more so than the good times of His healing comfort—we get a full measure of that, too." 2 Corinthians 1:3-5 (MSG)
Over a period of eight years, I have spent more time to nurture my own needs; physical, emotional, and spiritual. To honor this amazing temple from God and to give it what it needs to thrive. I have learned to love myself enough to take good care of my body by only putting healthy "real" food in it. Instead of using traditional medicine or treatment, I practice holistic wellness, plant-based nutrition, and gentle methods to maintain my health.
Although I would never want to walk that dark road where I had once suffered grueling pain with fibromyalgia, depression, and wicked withdrawals from prescription drugs, I believe this negative experience has been a blessing in disguise. You see, today I am grateful for the horrendous hardships that I had faced. Those hellish challenges have made me stronger and have set the foundation for where I find myself now; a passionate bestselling author, speaker, and wellness coach.
Had I not endured that unfathomable season, I do not know that I would have ever written three books, started my YouTube channel where I do most of my speaking, been invited to freelance write for amazing websites, or had the honor of Oprah Winfrey using my inspiring quote in her 21 Days of Manifesting Grace Through Gratitude.
Wow! My entire life has been dramatically changed and it all started because I was fed up with fibromyalgia! Through this journey to wellness, I have successfully lost 10 lbs and plenty of inches. Even though I do believe that our health is a top priority, I will honestly share that losing weight has been a wonderful perk! I am thankful for those less than positive challenges that have led me to this point. My prayer is to inspire and empower others on their own health and wellness journey.
If you are struggling with chronic pain, an auto-immune disorder, depression, anxiety, ADHD, insomnia, fatigue, obesity, gastrointestinal discomfort, or any other health concern, perhaps you have been connected to me for a good reason? As a Holistic Wellness and Nutrition Coach, I can help you along your own healing journey. For more information on what I offer, please view my coaching page titled Work With Me or contact me.
Healing. Health. Hope.