As the DJ's continued talking about this, they mentioned that reaching a milestone can be daunting, especially since it takes much time, patience, and effort. This topic instantly brought my upcoming book to mind in which I've been struggling for the past five months to write. In reality, my writing has been interrupted nonstop. It's been one thing after another. I feel as if I haven't accomplished much of anything and it is very disappointing to me.
In the midst of this radio discussion, I sensed God stirring. Silently, I told the Lord that I really want to write my book, despite the chaos spinning my life out of control. This is when I heard God speak. No, it was not audible, but I know beyond a shadow of doubt it was that still soft voice speaking directly to me.
This is when my Heavenly Maker said, "You are not giving yourself enough credit. You have made progress. You are doing the best you can and you need to celebrate your inch pebbles, instead of worrying about milestones. It may not be overnight, but you will reach the finish line!"
Tears of relief and joy washed over me as I lay on my bed embracing God's brilliant Word. Once again, it confirms that the Lord is at work in me and through me. Regardless that I want to write my book and be done with it quickly, I accept Christ has His own perfect time line, which is nothing compared to mine. Even though it does not make sense to me in the flesh, I lean on the scripture that says, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight." (Proverbs 3:5-6 NIV)
If there is nothing else I have learned through my 22 years being a woman of faith, it's that God is always faithful and His ways are not like our ways. Today, I release my way, my idea's, my book, my ability to write, my health, my schedule, my own personal desires, my goals and dreams, as well as my entire life to Jesus who has everything in the palm of His hands. It is okay to just be in the moment and trust even when I can't see the future or the end result. It is alright to stop striving, and moving, and constantly seeking to be in action 24/7 around the clock.
The truth is this...whether I write a book, complete a book, or sit still and do nothing, God still loves me, accepts me, and pours out His grace. I am challenging my own self to be still and get out of the Lord's way. To not get so distracted with outward troubles and responsibilities that I forget that all Jesus wants is for me to slow down and spend time with Him. To draw closer in an intimate relationship where I can know Him more.
This is what my soul yearns for...to know God more intimately and to keep Him in the center of my life. In gratitude, I give thanks to Him for helping me see His heart. To be grateful for the little inch pebbles of 2015 and to trust there is so much beauty in progress no matter how big or small.