Over the past year, there's been so many hard moments, especially when my mom was diagnosed with stage 3 brain cancer. What this uncertain journey has taught me is that we must make the best of today. Life is too darn short to let it pass us by! We may never know when we will take our last breath. Yet we can live today fully in the moment.
With the winds of change come brand new seasons. This shift began gradually. To expand myself. To consider all of my strengths and talents that I haven't been using for close to eight years because I've been so passionate about writing. As a published author, writing is a big part of my life. It's who I am. I cannot imagine myself not writing.
What most people do not realize is that authors usually don't earn dependable income, unless they are incredibly fortunate, such as J.K. Rowling from the children's fantasy, Harry Potter, or gifted romance novelist, Nicholas Sparks. As for myself, I never set out to write in effort to gain wealth. Writing has always been focused on ministering to others, giving hope, and inspiring people from all walks of life.
In today's economy, most couples do not have the luxury for a one income family. The bills don't stop and they need paid. This nonstop stress upon my husband and I led me to consider reentering the workforce. After much time, thought, and prayers, I narrowed down my options to one particular company that I wanted to work for. So in June, I was thrilled to discover an opening on their website. Within 30 minutes of applying for a beauty expert position (licensed cosmetologist/esthetician/makeup artist), someone from human resources contacted me for an interview.
Who would have known that this would have taken me on a three month emotional roller coaster ride? Or four interviews? Or sleepless nights praying for God to open this door only if it were His divine will for me? Or second guessing myself, my purpose, my strengths, and my future?
In July, I thought the Lord closed this door of opportunity for me. Another person was offered this position. Truth be told, I was very disappointed and confused. Why would God open the door only to close it? It baffled me.
So I pressed deeper into His Word. I sought His truth. I surrendered my dreams, my wants, and my plans for His. During the uncertainty and frustration of not knowing what to do with my life, He poured out His peace that surpasses all understanding. A peace that comforted me when my flesh was wrestling with God. Tranquil peace that washed over me saying, "His timing is perfect. His plan will not be thwarted. He will complete what He started in me."
In the midst of acceptance that the Lord was in control, I prayed for clarity, wisdom, and I started applying for other jobs. Six weeks past by. Out of nowhere my phone rang. To my surprise, it was human resources from the original position that I had applied for. The dream job that I did not get.
To my amazement, another opening was available at a new location. I was invited for another interview. My fourth to be exact! Once again, this goes to prove that just because God shuts a door, it does not mean forever. Instead, a closed door can mean not now. It can mean be patient. It can mean that we need to not lose faith. Oh, and for the part on being patient, did I mention that this can be overwhelming when we are forced to wait?
Let's hold onto faith...
May we never lose sight of unstoppable faith. May we press on, press in, and cling to unshakable faith. The kind of strong faith that kept Moses leading his people around the desert for 40 years. That even when things on the surface are not looking promising to march forth declaring Jesus will have victory. And when God graciously parts the Red Sea, may we have courage to walk through to the other side.
"Faith is being sure of what you hope for and certain of what you do not see." (Hebrews 11:1)
My exciting announcement is that I was offered the full-time beauty expert position. Oh my gosh, I'm ecstatic! This is a marvelous answer to prayer! This new opportunity and benefits are beyond my greatest expectation. Truly, without God this never would have been possible.
As I move forward into this new season of life, I must realistically accept that many things in my day to day routine will drastically change. Working 40 hours a week, commuting back and forth to work, and being employed most definitely will change my availability to write, to blog, and to engage with others on social media.
For now, I plan to devote myself to my job and to give myself time to become acclimated. This significant transition in my life may take weeks or months to adjust to. With every responsibility, whether good or not so great, comes stress. I'm asking for all of my prayer warriors to add me to your daily prayers. For the Lord to strengthen me and have favor upon me as I start this new venture.
Also, I am asking for grace...
Grace for the lengthier periods when I may not be up to blogging, writing books, or posting on Facebook or Twitter. Grace for when I'm exhausted from working long hours and need to simply relax once I arrive home. Grace for when you send me a private message on Facebook or you email me, but I'm not able to respond to you quickly.
In advance, I want to reach out to thank each one of you for your support, encouragement, friendships, and fervent prayers for me. I sincerely appreciate all of the amazing people and friendships that I've formed over the years, especially on Facebook. You have each touched my life in such a positive way and are a blessing!
When I have a moment to come up for air, I will continue to connect with you on social media. Eventually, I believe that I will get used to my new schedule and everything will smoothly fall right into place. For this moment, it's a bit scary and exciting all wrapped up into one big gift from God! Ultimately, I trust that He's moving me into a season unlike any other for a higher purpose. Onward and upward!