So here it goes...
Being a woman of faith is not always an easy path to follow. To never have doubts. To not drift onto the wrong road. To always have it altogether and be a shining example of Christianity. When we live out our faith in our ordinary lives there can be dark moments when nothing seems to be going right. When fear paralyzes us. When we really do want to trust God, but what we see as our reality appears on the surface to be the furthest from His will. Yet the will of our Heavenly Father can and oftentimes does include sickness, losses, disappointments, and suffering.
So yesterday as I wrestled with my current circumstances, I had no peace. While it would have been easier to remain isolated in my home and have a pity party, I forced myself to reach out to my mom who is battling stage 3 brain cancer. In all honesty, I didn't feel like doing anything yesterday, but I had already promised my mom that I would clean her home.
In the evening, I went over to her place and gave her a big hug. Then I focused on cleaning her toilet, sink, bathtub, and scrubbing her floors. Dirty work, but someone has to do it so it may as well be me. From there, I washed her kitchen floors, helped with laundry, and took her dog, Zoe, out for a walk. (Or rather, Zoe took me for a run!)
Unexpectedly, something incredible happened...
God filled me with peace. It was unlike any peace on earth. In the midst of the simple act of reaching out to serve another, grace washed over me. In spite of the uncertainty about my life, my mom's health, and a dozen other concerns, all was well with my soul.
I may not know what tomorrow brings, but I do know that Jesus will equip me and help me through whatever comes my way. Today, if you relate to this post and are wrestling with your own struggles, I pray for God to pour out the peace that surpasses all understanding upon you. No matter what you're enduring, may He fill you with hope and joy for a brighter future.
"I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13 (NLT)